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Name: Kjelse
Gender: Female
Interests: Astronomy, aviation, photography, writing, reading, Tolkien, Dekker, music, piano, bass, internet
Expertise: Piano, writing
Occupation: Student, campus security, grad
Industry: Digital Writing
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AIM:  givingallup4love
Member Since:
5/31/2007
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| I need to write here more often....
Wedding plans are moving along quite nicely. So are plans for what we're doing after we're getting married. We think we found some apartments we can move into while he finishes college, so that's good :
Ughhh...the main reason I'm writing this right now at 5:06 in the morning is because I am extremely tired. I don't know if I've been this tired in my life. I slept from 2-4-ish, but I guess I didn't get much sleep the night before, either. I accidentally signed up for a 10 p.m.-2 a.m. shift and a 4 a.m.-8 a.m. shift. Bad idea. So I'm doing whatever I can necessary to stay awake and sane--my emotions are going crazy from the lack of sleep, and my body just feels sick. I do have one more Mountain Dew in the fridge (I already had a large chai tea latte and a Mountain Dew), but the thought of all that sugar and sweetness is not appealing.
Although, honestly, if I'm going to be writing, I shouldn't be writing this. I should be writing my NaNoWriMo novel. I have somewhere around 4.5k words and it really should be double that by tonight. Saturday is going to be novel-writing day for me. I'm excited about where my novel is going--it involves espionage, God, real feelings in a world that was turned upside-down. :)
~Kjelse
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| I'm stressed. sad. confused. excited. ecstatic. yearning. regretful. happy. thrilled. frustrated. content. scared. never been better.
I have the whole gamut of emotions running through me at various times. a year from now, it'll all be over. I'll be married. But for now, I have to plan the wedding, say goodbye to my parents and siblings and thanks for the past 20 years of my life, say goodbye to my fiance as I leave on Sunday for another semester of school 16 hours away, get over conflicts of interest in wedding planning, and keep my focus on Jesus.
and it's tough. 4 months. 4 months I'll be graduated. oh yeah, which reminds me, I have to say goodbye to the relationships and life I've developed at LeTU. the life that I've had for only 2 years--2 1/2 come December. not the full 4. goodbye to my favorite job I've ever had--working security at LeTU.
and 4 months. 4 months I'll be married.
It's like a snowball--my life took a sudden turn this past Sunday, and it's picking up speed as the ball heads downhill. it's hitting rocks, like the goodbyes that have to take place. and honestly, those are the biggest rocks. There are smaller ones (which are pretty stressful themselves), such as the church being booked on the one December date Jordan and I can get married. but I'm having a super tough time getting ready to leave my family. Essentially, with fall/thanksgiving breaks included, I have a total of 2 weeks left with them under their roof. I'm extremely close to them, so it's very, very hard.
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yet I'm so excited for the wedding--Jordan's and my relationship has gotten so intense. It's good we're getting married in December. The sooner the better. We're having a harder time being away from each other...and I'm still at home! He's the person I want next to me all the time, whatever I do. God has developed an incredible love story for us, and it's finally culminating in our marriage! so I'm absolutely ecstatic and thrilled and just everything good.
Those lyrics by Katy Perry go well with me, changed a little. "I'm up and I'm down, I'm yes and I'm no, I'm in and I'm out, I'm hot and I'm cold."
But this is what God wants us to do. So we're doing it. and we'll get through conflicts in our relationship about the wedding planning. and we'll get through the goodbyes. Married life is a whole 'nother stage of life, so I'll be very preoccupied with it, rather than being preoccupied with who I'm without. Cuz now I'm with the one person I want to be with!
if anyone has any tips on being married or whatever, let me know!!
(by the way, point blank, we did not change the date from May to December because I'm pregnant--I'm not. Logistically it just works out way better, in terms of where we live and what I'm doing, etc.)
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| Colors are pretty powerful, if you think about it. I get depressed when I see yellow on a rainy day. Why? I don't know. I feel calmer when I see blue, although if it's a brighter blue, like aqua, I get excited. White makes me very happy, and black is mysterious--and dark. Red is one of the most powerful colors--it's the color of blood, of love, of heat.
My favorite author (other than Tolkien) is Ted Dekker. Dekker wrote a trilogy of books called the Circle Trilogy. Each of these books is named after a color. The first one is Black, the second Red, the third White. The naming follows the emotions and images these colors bring up. Black=something is horribly wrong. Red=it may be able to get better, but something unseen and terribly sad must happen first. White=victory. And this trilogy is incredible--yes, it follows a standard plot line, but only at the most basic level: problem-->solution. And even then, Dekker decided to twist it around.
Like the name implies, his story is a circle. Not one of those "A causes B causes C causes A"--that's more like a linear circle. Rather, it is a circle that has dimension--everything is interconnected and woven together. It is not a flat linear circle; it is a ball. You can't have one thing without another.
And now, he has completed the trilogy with a 4th book. How can a trilogy have a 4th book? It is book 0. It is the beginning and the end of the trilogy. And its color is Green--the color of life.
I am excited to read this last/first book. I am excited to see what is happening, what is connected, what is all related to the one man, Thomas Hunter, who travels between two separate, yet interrelated, worlds--and saves them both in an epic story of joy, of failure, of tears and sorrow, of blood, and of victory. I want to see how LIFE all plays together.
If you've never read the Circle Trilogy, you have GOT to read them. But start with Green, now that it is coming out. Go to http://teddekker.com/readgreen and enter 4943 in the Forest Guard # part. Pre-order it--you won't regret it!
~Kjelse
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| Tonight, God answered a prayer that I have prayed since I was 12. I prayed often that I would marry the first person I date--I wanted my future husband to have a completely untainted, unmarred heart, mind, and body from me. I didn't know if God would grant me that, and there were times where I wished I could date sooner than 18. But God had a plan, and he orchestrated events in such a specific way that I met Jordan Scott Rittmeyer, became best friends with him, and eventually started dating him. And God led us to fall in love and to seriously consider a permanent future together. Tonight, that future has been made official.
Tonight, Jordan asked me to marry him, and I said yes.
We were planning on having a nice evening together, eating a formal dinner at his house and recording some music of his. I arrived straight from work in jeans and a hoodie, carrying my formal dress for the dinner inside, and we went up to his room to record. We recorded a scratch track (basically a test track) for one song, and then he had his brother Nathanael video us for a "scholarship contest" that has to with music. Just before he started playing, Jordan said, "I just got a great idea for a song! Let me play it and later we can work on it." Then, with Nathanael still videotaping, he began playing and singing a song I had never heard before--a song about our relationship, the ups and downs and tears and joys. The verse built up to the chorus, and as he began the chorus, he knelt down on one knee and sang, "Will you marry me? Will you say 'I do'? Will you stay with me, night and day..."
I sat there, stunned and smiling, thinking "I can't believe this! He's proposing to me right now!" At the end of the song, he pulled a ring out of his shirt pocket and strummed the last several chords, singing, "Kjelse, will you marry me?" He held it out as I whispered "yes" and fumbled my purity ring off my left ring finger. He put the platinum band with the sparkling solitaire on my finger, and we stood up and hugged tightly as we kissed.
I still couldn't believe it for a while. Our meal was incredible--Mrs. Rittmeyer cooked some delicious pork, grilled green beans, sweet potato/baked potato, sweet corn, salad, and rolls (and finished off with a heavenly smooth French silk pie), and we toasted our engagement with sparkling grape juice. We praised God through prayer--and God really takes all the glory for our relationship. He kept us together, even when it got tough, and He was the one who helped us not to have a very hard time with our relationship being long-distance.
He answered my prayer, too. Jordan is the first person I have dated and ever will date, the only person I will ever kiss. My Lord Jesus, thank you for this incredible gift! I cannot express to you all my feelings, but you know what they are--I love you more than words could ever say (so I can't wait to tell you in heaven, when hopefully my speech will be much more adequate)!
Jordan, I love you so very much, and I am honored and blessed to be your future wife! I hope to respect and love and serve you in whatever capacity I can, whatever way God ordains for me. You will be a wonderful husband, and I LOVE YOU!!!! | | |
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♥ So Much Love ♥
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I am a Christian, and Jesus is my #1 passion. I was homeschooled my entire life before coming to college, but most people are surprised to learn that. I am also engaged to the most wonderful man in the world, Jordan. We're getting married in May 2010.
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RED, Imogen Heap, Angels & Airwaves, Breaking Benjamin, Falling Up, The Postal Service, Skillet, tobyMac, Muse, Hellogoodbye, Jack Johnson, The Rocket Summer, Relient K, Basshunter, Josh Turner, Rihanna, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, MIKA, Coldplay, Playradioplay
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